So it’s been a while since I’ve been wanting to write about this. And I’m so glad as I finally sit down to write about this. I’m not a closeted individual. My life is pretty much an open book for all those who’re associated with me. Everybody at my college knows about my sexuality and they’ve been pretty fine with it. But in my family, it’s only my sister. She truly is my backbone. She’s seen me go through the entire tunnel and find that light of hope. And I’ve not been even half as good to her as she has been to me. But I guess I love annoying her and I don’t think I can give up doing that to her. Ah! I am so *Evil*!
I personally don’t like dressing up like the macho man. And I don’t dress like a girl either. I dress like a girly-man. Yes! That is how I’d like to put it. And there is a difference between the above two. For that matter I wouldn’t even look down upon men who dress like women. I mean, what’s wrong in dressing like that? I have just one life. And I want to do all those things that I want to do in my life until and unless that doesn’t adversely affect the people around me. I don’t judge and I would never. I love wearing skin fit jeans. I love wearing pink and prints. I love wearing shorts. And if given an opportunity, I’d love to wear skirts like the one that Marc Jacobs wears. I find them super cool. And I so hope that I someday get to wear those amazing heels. I absolutely love Ellen for that reason. And I feel so happy to see how people have embraced her. She wears what she wants to wear regardless of what the world wants her to wear. She is such a fearless woman and my love and respect for her quadruples every time I see her on her show. Talking about eccentric dressing, and not mentioning about Freddie Mercury is such a crime! He is probably my biggest fashion influence and how I really look up to him. Unafraid and flamboyant in the truest sense. Even after more than twenty years of his death, I’m amazed by the kind of influence he has on people. And why not? How ahead of times must he have been when he thought of wearing all that he wore during his performances. All that he wrote and all that he sang. Every little thing that he depicted in his songs. I can seriously just go on and on. I’m truly and deeply in love with Freddie Mercury, period.
I often ask this to people(usually the straight ones) who criticize my demeanor. Imagine yourself in the body of the alternate sex and you were to live like that from the next day . For instance you were a woman who loved wearing her sarees, anarkalis, skirts and dresses. But from the next day you have to act like a man. And acting like a man includes- walking, talking, sitting, eating and even sleeping. You have to do all of that like a man. You have to wear only baggy pants and shirts from that day onward. You have to make love to a woman, because that is what the society wants you to do. And vice versa i.e a man having to live like a woman from the next day onward. Just imagine! Many of us have to live our lives like that forever. Our gender and our sexuality defines a lot more of our being than what we think it does. So learn to respect the choices that people make. Learn to NOT jump to conclusions. Learn to NOT be judgmental. And honestly I’m not saying that my life is more difficult than yours. We all have to go through the same amount of crap and the equal amount of happiness in our lives. But it is important to accept, live and let live.